Monthly Archives: April 2014

Uninspired Inspiration

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Struggles hinder us, as we are emotional beings. Emotional struggles render us human beings useless. It doesn’t matter the nature of the struggle. We all go through it with anything that we decide to make important to us in our life. Friday my dear friends, somebody I made important to me left to return home. Just for the summer. I may even do the same in the next couple months. Yet here I am, plagued with writer’s block and “sit and home and do nothing” syndrome.

It makes no sense to me. So let me try to put this misfortune to paper (metaphorically) in hopes of understanding it.

Does it always make sense? The heart wants what the heart wants. Even when you ask it to stop wanting.

Clearly it’s Batman while the brain is Robin.

What I mean by this is, logically I can’t think of why I feel this way – believe me I have given myself all the time in the world to think. So in a sense, the brain just takes a back seat to the emotions of the heart. We are emotional beings.

Dammit! 

When we broke up I guess you can say that it was a logical decision. Ok maybe it was a bit more logical than what I’m letting on. Based on my previous circumstances, I made changes. This one by far the hardest but it was still made. When did those months put themselves there?  I truly feel like I just woke up from this coma. I knew I wasn’t connected emotionally (there’s that word again) to anything, I knew what I was trying to do and was formulating how to do it, but I didn’t see this happening. Any of it.

“Life is what happens while you are busy making other plans” – John Lennon

Indeed it truly is. This lesson along with those of his more recent posts, I read so eagerly from this blogger, Matt. Even in his claim of not knowing what he is doing, he still forms a guide for someone like me. His experience is being absorbed by this in-experienced mind. In this thing we call life it’s good to know that you are not alone sometimes.

I think it’s interesting how I felt like I was going through the motion of everything and now that I feel an emotion, I feel connected to that last time. That last moment when my brain tried to be Batman.

Love will be love. No matter your definition of it. I believe that each and every one of us has his or her own interpretation of it and trust me; you’re right, don’t worry about your friend’s relationship. Now don’t get me wrong, this weekend doesn’t make that r-word any less spine chilling. I am certain that this is a mutual thought. The step forward may just be a metaphorical one as opposed to a literal one.

I want to understand this weekend. There’s something to be learnt here. So this is my uninspired inspiration.

A bird doesn’t sing because it has an answer, it sings because it has a song. 

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The silver lining

So you heard my story and this is what I learnt from it. If you haven’t heard it then I implore you to go read, “Home is where the heart is” before you read this.

Good, so now we are all on the same page. I came here at a young age (I am still at a young age) with problems I thought I could escape from. That was my first mistake. My second was that I did not know how to face them after realizing I couldn’t run. Then came the solution, the silver lining. My faith in God shone through like never before. Through that faith I saw that I needed to stay educated, with education the world becomes much clearer. I’m not talking about just formal education; no I’m talking about street smarts as well as book smarts. Keeping your eyes and ears wide open. In fact, I even took this semester off to realize this. A semester away from the ball and chains of a school regime, I took some time to sit back and close my eyes for a bit so that I could see clearer.

This is my time to listen and learn. A lot of what I just said didn’t happen overnight. I fell and that’s ok. It’s human nature to want to sit and sulk for a bit. Thanks to my faith and the brutal words from somebody who clearly cares, I can see myself getting back up. I started to read books on success, watch old, great movies that I never would have had the time to watch, and I learnt the most valuable lesson of all. Time. We all want time. Time to spend with our families. Time to grab a drink with some old buddies. Time to have fun and enjoy the finer things. How do we get time? What steps must we take to put ourselves in a position where we have the time we want?

That is my silver lining. Understanding that I need to get those questions answered. It took a tornado to hit me for me to unearth this simple concept, time.

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Home is where the heart is.

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I was 18. I wasn’t ready. This came at a point where I was excited, happy, animated and I thought I was ready. In fact I thought I was more than ready. With all the family issues daunting me at the time I wanted to run to my salvation, to get away with a clean slate, as far as I could.

You see we are all wrong; we all talk about a dramatic entrance when it’s all about the dramatic exit.

I had my family, I had my friends and I had my girlfriend with me. I could have stayed in touch with them right? New age technology allows for that so easily. I wasn’t really losing them so why should I not be excited for what’s to come. I traveled a lot every summer but never stayed away from home for more than 3 weeks and only once had I ever gone to Canada. A new land to conquer!

Boy was I wrong. Boy was I scared.

Not only could I not escape anything that I was trying to run from but also now I no longer had my support system to help me through it. Skype wasn’t enough to save me from crying myself to sleep at nights. I couldn’t let my girlfriend bare through this as a by-stander helplessly. Making her feel inadequate. I was alone. Not because I chose to be but because I needed to be.

I lived an entire year, my first year in university on Skype. My mind was on how great it would be to be back home soaking up the sun and partying. Being with my girlfriend. An entire year of wishing I was somewhere else. Looking back I would never wish that on anybody else. Don’t torture yourself like I did. I needed to face my problems in the present and not be living in the past.

THANKFULLY I did/am!

Entering my second year I had no patience for this problem I had over my head for an entire year. I needed to stop running and deal with it. Only half way through the year had my persistence shown fruitful. I lost everything to build back a new something. I will explain in later posts what I mean by this but my point of all of this is; home is where the heart is. I spent a crucial year for me wishing I were somewhere I spent the year before wishing I wasn’t. Ottawa must be a great city and I will keep you updated on how much it is as soon as I start living here. I just left home.

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The starting point of all achievement is desire. – Napoleon Hill

In accordance with my new design, I will leave you with this quote from somebody extremely influential to me right now. In one all-nighter I achieved an entirely different design because I desired it and I believed I could. If I can do it, you can too!

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Blood moon!?

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BREAKING NEWS!!

Well staying up at 2 in the morning surely isn’t too costly of a task for a student! On April 15, 2014 it was predicted that there would be a lunar eclipse known as a blood moon. This is a link for more information on this interesting activity but what I want to know is who actually got a chance to see it? As if I were a child on Christmas morning, I waited for 2:00 am promptly this morning. I DIDN’T get to see it! I did however get links to watch it online but those don’t interest me at all. I wanted to see it in the sky itself or back to bed!

What do you guys think? Did you get to see it? Feel free to leave a comment or email me and it would be interesting to know which part of the world you were in at the time. Here in Ottawa maybe it was too cloudy.

Emory’s World will return to regular programming with the next blog on April 20th.

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Blogger by day, Hero at night!

Anything can happen after midnight in these streets of Ottawa. A casual walk home from enjoying the night out with friends can turn into a story of a damsel in despair in need of help. That’s exactly what happened last night! Backing out of a cab was a gorgeous young brunette coaxing her equally as beautiful blonde friend to do the same task. It was a task indeed; it didn’t take me two steps passed them to realize that this girl needed help. As I offered my services, which was pleasantly denied, her blonde roommate decides to prove to her that my assistance was needed. She begins to gyrate and easily slips out of the hands of the brunette in her attempt to walk on her own. Convinced, she asks me my name as she allows me to hold up her friend and we begin to walk. With one arm around her roommate and one arm around this new stranger, the confused blonde swivels her head in my direction and back trying to assess the situation. Distressed by our attempts to make it seem like she couldn’t walk on her own, she bolts off down the street with her roommate at her heels. I wanted to run but I knew she wouldn’t get far and low and behold they barely made it halfway down the block when they collided into each other and fell over.

This was the only serious part of this anecdote because the blonde fell into the street. So I quickly picked her up and brought her to safety. The two girls were laughing and enjoying themselves the entire time, honestly so was I. It was so good to see loyalty between two roommates like that. Especially on the last fall where the blonde got hurt and her roommate vowed to stay there on the ground with her as long as she wanted. Not to mention how stunning they were doing everything with drunken grace, would love to see them work together under normal circumstances. Anyway to make a short story long, I helped her get her friend through the door and continued my casual walk home.

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